Sunday, December 29, 2013

A Few of my Favorites

Rather than listing out in detail all of the events that have happened in the past two weeks I just wanted to highlight a few of my favorites. That, and I was horrible this year with getting my camera out! Not very many pictures were taken....bad...I know.

*Christmas down south....

Pomona, CA. At my Grandma's house.  Definately not the same without my Grandpa there.  He was sorely missed!  It was the day of the Las Vegas Royal Bowl.  Fresno State vs. USC.  Poor Ryan was the only bulldog in the house, out numbered by all of my cousins....BUT the kids were even 3 vs. 3!

3 Bulldog fans vs. 3 USC fans
I LOVE this picture of my family (even though it's a little blurry)
Cousin Natalie was making them laugh.

Corona, CA at my aunts house.  My boys LOVE our cousins Morgan and Chandler!

It was a short visit but so fun seeing family that we don't get to see often enough!
My Dad's side...2 sisters and 1 brother....all of their kids and their kids kids. (missing my sister and my brother, and my cousin Jace who is currently serving our country!)

Homemade Christmas decor

I bought the supplies for a stocking idea and tree skirt idea way back in January when things were on clearance.  And like a lot of things lately, my mom comes over to help me....and I end up running out of time and she ends up finishing it for me.

I recycled my old silvery tree skirt and turned it into a red burlap/fabric one. (and by I, I mean: I started it and then my mom finished it)

And then my mom made these stockings! (I had every intention of sewing them myself...but who am I skills pale in comparison to my Mom's!)
Don't worry, she made 6 of them so I am prepared for next year.  And She's going to embroider our names on them too! I love them.

Kid Craft!

My sister had been watching the boys in the mornings a few days a week the past few months until Ryan got off work for the winter.  One of the mornings she did this little hand craft with the boys.  I LOVE them!! One of my most favorite decorations up this year.

Having kids brings a whole new excitement for Christmas!! We enjoyed watching them open their gifts and I feel so blessed to have a family that showers them with love.

Christmas Eve - Holguin Christmas

Grandma Kettle and Pie-pa (Ryan's parents) got them these awesome jackets!! Vincent opened the box and said "oooooo, I be a fireman!" 

Christmas Morning - Our little family of 5 (and a half)

The big gift we got the boys were bikes! I got their reaction on video so no pictures. But they love them!

They LOVED helping us open our gifts too.

My hubs totally rocks! He spoiled me by getting me an ipad! This wasn't on my list....and it was so unexpected. He done goooood. 

Christmas day - Rollema Christmas

My mom prepared a yummy lunch! We skyped my brother and his family who live in Wyoming.  And enjoyed playing out in the grove with my sister's dog Roxy.

My Parents (Grammie and Grandpa) got the boys the Planes duplo sets. So fun seeing them flying the planes around. We are ALL looking forward to our trip to Disneyland in a few weeks! I was super excited for Christmas....but now I am WAY SUPER excited for Disneyland!!!  The boys are going to LOVE it and they have no idea what magical place awaits them!

I got some thoughtful and meaningful gifts.  Here are a couple of my favorites.

This one from my friend Vanessa... Makes me look forward to meeting our newest member even more!

This gift was from my parents. I cried when I opened special and so very true. She is apart of our family... ALWAYS.


Pregnancy Update:
I'm at 22 weeks, over half way done!
Baby is kicking like crazy but Ryan and the boys can't feel it yet
Still no name....He just might be born nameless!! After finding three boy names we liked....we are stumped with the fourth.

Next Post
Be next post will be about our Disneyland trip. I'm sure it will be picture overload! haha! I can't wait!! So super excited! (If you couldn't tell already.)

Friday, December 6, 2013

A Thanksgiving of Remembrance

We are always most thankful around Thanksgiving time. This year was no different.  Ryan's family was celebrating Thanksgiving the friday after. My family was celebrating it the Saturday after.  So I volunteered to work on Thanksgiving day and then went home and started decorating for Christmas.
Friday morning we had a slow morning getting ready while the turkey, that we were bringing over to the Holguin Thanksgiving, baked in the oven .  We started packing the truck up with our stuff and while Ryan put the boys in the truck I received a phone call from my mom.  A phone call I never thought I would be getting. A phone call I never will forget.  "Grandpa has had a heart attack and the paramedics are working on him at his house but it doesn't look good"
We left for Ryan's parents house and I put on a smiling face. But my mind was somewhere else.  I don't know how much time went by, it couldn't have been more than an hour that I got another call from my mom saying Grandpa had gone to be with the Lord.
I don't know if it's harder to lose someone so suddenly and not have the chance to say goodbye, or to watch a loved one suffer a sickness long enough for you to see the end drawing near. Probably the latter, but never did I expect to have this Christmas approaching where my Grandpa wouldn't be there to celebrate with us.  I didn't get the chance to say goodbye.
We still got together with my family on Saturday and we were able to put aside our grieving and enjoy in our Thankgiving.  Ryan and I are soooo very thankful for these three turkeys (and the little bun in the oven)  

 We watched the boys play in the piles of leaves in my Dad's walnut grove.  Watching them play just made my Thankful. Thankful for family. Thankful for my Grandpa's life and his love for family.

The boys loved standing under the trees as the leaves fell.  Just a reminder that there are seasons in life as well. That losing loved ones is apart of life. But what a blessing it is to have the peace in knowing that the Lord has prepared a place for us to go when our time here on earth is done.

We celebrated my Grandpa's life today. What a hard day it was.

My Grandpa married my Grandma in October of 1980. Two years before I was born.  He has always been there. Always.  He was the best Grandpa I could have asked for.  When we moved to Visalia when I was 9 he still made every effort to be apart of my life as much as possible.  He has taken hundreds of trips over the grapevine for any and all kinds of events in my life.  I had just spoken to him on the phone a week prior about my pregnancy and how he was sooo looking forward to seeing my family at his house for Christmas.  Things just aren't going to be the same without him.   

My Grandpa was loved by so many.

He was buried on a hillside that over looks Pomona Valley.  You can see his old Truck Company yard from his grave and the hill that my Grandparents house is on.  He said he liked that spot because that way he could still keep an eye on things.  You see, my Grandpa always had a great sense of humor.  It was so nice hearing stories about him today and his life growing up.  Hearing from his children and grandchildren and seeing all his friends and family gather to support my Grandma was such a blessing.

10 out of 11 of his grandsons were lined up by his coffin (the man in the leather jacket was a worker from the funeral home) There are 15 grandchildren total.

From those 15 grandchildren come 17 great grandchildren.  There was a bouquet of roses displayed, each rose representing a great grandchild.  All of them living except Karissa. So she was represented with a pink rose.

My aunt said to me today that her husband (my uncle Karl who passed away from cancer only a few days after I had my triplets in 2011) and my Karissa started the party in heaven early and Grandpa was just now joining them.  What a day that will be when we can all be there together.

It's always hard saying goodbye to a loved one.  But I am so thankful for the memories I have of my Grandpa, for the love he had for my Grandma but I'm most thankful for the Love he had for the Lord.

 It was still a time of Thanksgiving. Just not as we had expected. My Grandpa went to be with the Lord the day after Thanksgiving 2013.  A day and A man I will remember for the rest of my days.

I love you Grandpa. I'll be seeing you.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

An Announcement with Perspective

Ryan and I are so HAPPY to announce that we are expecting the FINAL Holguin family member to be here at the end of April!

Most couples go through marriage counseling before the big day.  We were no different and one of the questions was "how many kids do you want?" My answer was 4. Ryan came from a family of 5. I am from a family of 3. 4 seems like the perfect number.

When I was pregnant with the triplets and the expense of raising three kids at once was looming, I thought maybe we need to be done at 3.  But with the passing of Karissa, I knew our family was not done. When we had Jacob, the conversations started on how long do we wait to have the 4th. We didn't want to wait too long with the chance of it being a 4th boy because we didn't want a cluster of 3 boys close in age and then this fourth boy several years younger.  So we decided to start trying after the first of the year 2014.  Well the Lord saw our family a little differently than we did! SURPRISE pregnancy 6 months sooner than we had "planned". I believe the specific words I used were "I'm not ready for another one!" But then I thought back to just 4 short years ago and how desperate I was to be a mom and now I am soon-to-be-the-mother of 4. What a blessing in disguise this pregnancy has been.  The timing of it actually couldn't be better.  AND it IS a boy! So he will be nice and close to his older brothers.

We purposefully kept the pregnancy a secret until we knew what the gender was because honestly I hate hearing "are you trying for a girl?" "Are you hoping for a girl" It has been a long few months waiting for the ultrasound to find out what we are having. As much as I didn't want these thoughts running through my head, I did find myself thinking: Will I get to raise a daughter like I had thought I was going to for 7 months carrying the triplets?  Will I get to use the three bins of girls clothes, bedding and blankets I have stored away and kept for the possible future?

The Lord really knows what he is doing. We are meant to raise 4 boys.  And our baby girl was blessed to skip life on Earth and go straight to a place so wonderful we can't even imagine.

I'm not going to lie, I cried when we found out this one was a boy. But I want to get something straight. We were NOT trying for a girl (just FYI there is no scientific proof that you can try for a specific gender so that is the stupidest question people ask!) Anyway.... We wanted 4 children regardless of their gender.  My tears were not sad tears. I think this just stirs up feelings of mourning the loss of my daughter all over again, because there is now no reason to hang onto her things when someone else can get use out of them.
because I will now hear for the rest of my life "only boys huh?" and that's going to hurt because I DID have a girl.
and because the only sister my boys have is not here living life with them.
I am in NO WAY sad that we are having a boy!

Disappointed?? Maybe a little at first. But I had my moment....and then I gained perspective....

I know what it is like to struggle to conceive.  We did NOT struggle to conceive this one!!
I know what it is like to deliver a stillborn so I know there are FAR MORE IMPORTANT things than a thriving healthy baby.
I know this baby has all of his fingers and toes, he has a brain, he looks healthy and normal on the ultrasound. So far so good.
I know if we had to chose between 4 boys and 4 girls we would definitely pick 4 boys! No drama queen kiddos and pms-ing teenagers here!
I know I can come up with a huge list of why raising boys is better/easier than raising girls (but then, I'm sure a mom of all girls could come up with a list just as long with the opposing side) so there really is no better gender to raise, one way or the other.
I know I will love this boy and wouldn't want him any other way
I know that we are done having kiddos (will be making surgical alterations to prevent another pregnancy) so I will CHERISH this experience because it is my last.
I know that we won't have to buy expensive prom dresses or pay for weddings!
I know that a woman who can't have children would trade places with me in a heartbeat
I know that people will feel sorry for me.....and that's their problem not mine
I know that from the outside I will look like a mom of all boys but I know in my heart that is not true
I know that we make some pretty cute boys and this one will be no different
I know that I will be blessed with 4 future daughter-in-laws someday
I know that we need a bigger pantry
I know that I will be the Queen of this house
I know that Jacob now has a brother to share a room with like Vincent and Landen share a room.
I know that Ryan is the best dad and we both look forward to saturdays at the sports park
I know that our boys will have a memorable childhood
I know that we are soooo looking forward to meeting our littlest little man

I know that we are blessed

oh....and watch out for year 2028.  We will have two seniors, a junior and a freshman. 4 Holguins on one high school campus!

Sunday, November 3, 2013

15 SPOOKY months!


So I was going to write an entire post about halloween but plans changed when I got like 5 good pictures total! So I thought I would also share a little about Jacob at 15 months since I did a similar post about the boys at 15 months also.

He weighs in at a heafty 27 lbs 2 oz. and his height is now on the charts (97th percentile) so he's slowed down in the inch department but he's still super tall for his age at 33 inches.

He is starting to talk more and more. He will repeat pretty much anything you ask him to say, although sometimes you have to use your imagination because it doens't quite sound like it supposed to. He is starting to say words with his signs too. So when he signs please he also says "pwee" and when he signs thank you he says "tay oo"

He is a super good eater. He likes pretty much everything except for juice. He has a total of 8 teeth. 4 on top and 4 on bottom and he is currently a drooling mess because ALL 4 of his molars are cutting through at the same time.

He loves to tackle his older brothers and loves playing on the floor with daddy. He is usually the one that is making the older boys cry. Nobody messes with him, even though he IS the baby around here!

He's starting to get into books a lot and he thinks he's old enough to play with Vincent and Landen's Nabi tablets (they are like kid ipads)  I'm thinking we might have to get Jacob one for Christmas!

He LOVE LOVE LOVES playing out side.  It doesn't matter what time of day it is he comes up to us and grabs our finger and starts pulling us towards the door "ah-schide, ah-schide" Try to explain to a toddler that 7:30 at night is too dark and too cold to be playing outside....ya, he doesn't really understand why you are saying no.

But most of all he tries to keep up with his older brothers. He wants what they have. He wants to be by them always (even like EVERY trip they take to the bathroom....yup there goes Jacob right behind them) For being 17 months younger than them, he is doing a pretty good job keeping up with them!


 I was supposed to be making the boys' costumes with the help of my mom but it ended up being the other way around.  She pretty much made them and I helped a little, and by a little I mean a very little bit.  I bought the supplies for $19 bucks!! And my dad had some stuffs to help put the finishing touches on.  They turned out PERFECT!!! 

We ended up going to our church for their harvest festival.  It was pretty packed and Ryan was super sick with a head cold. Luckily my parents and my sister were there to help us keep track of the boys and corral them through the crowds.  Vincent didn't want to walk or even stand, Jacob tuckered out by 7:00 and Landen was frustrated because he just wanted to go go go.  It was a quick night and there were some not so pleasant moments but still a fun memory in the books.

My little cowardly lion, scarecrow and tin man!

Vincent was the lion. I kept telling him he was going to be a lion for halloween and then Landen would pipe in "and and I be a tiger!"  haha I kept having to correct him.  Maybe I should have had them be a lion, tiger and bear!....maybe next year.

You can kind of tell his is holding his tail in the above picture. Here is a picture of the back.

Landen was the scarecrow. I was most worried about this one because the burlap was itchy.  But Landen loved it! and was so sad when it came time to take it off at the end of the evening.

Landen intently playing the tossing games.

Jacob was the tin man.   We tried making his face gray with face paint.  You can kind of tell.  He did a great job keeping his funnell on his head.

My mom (grammie) helped him play a lot of the games at the church. Look at those cheeks!!

An attempt at a group shot at the harvest festival.

I'm already brainstorming themed costumes for next year. And I will do themed as long as they let me. I figure sooner or later they will have their own opinions on what they want to be. But for's my turn to chose ;)